It seems to me that if we hold it (the poses), time can stand still. Moments like this can happen. From time to time, even for the slightest split second. Some call it peak experience, others in the spiritual Yoga community may refer to it as Samadhi. In Buddhism, maybe we call it Satori. It can happen in a glimpse of a moment, or for an extended period of time, as if life is happening, but not a whole lot of changes are occurring. Or maybe they are-maybe we are making them happen.
Maybe it's just that when we are looking, unnoticeable, small, subtle changes are taking place. Maybe we are creating our own Universe? On such a scale that we can't always notice the effects right away. Then after a seemingly innocuous weekend, past lines and clear definitions arise. Nothing spectacular happened, on the surface. A beautiful family member was visiting this weekend. Bike rides on the Back Bay while someone was practicing Yoga, cooking dinner while I tended to the garden, long heart to hearts that come too few and far between, and a sighing husband not even pretending to listen anymore. A crying baby while they hold Savasana.
Who knew that holding a pose like Virabhadrasana II (Warrior 2) for what seemed like an eternity could change my life. But it did, little by little. In fact our lives are changing all around us, all the time. Sometimes I forget to notice (okay let's be honest, there may have been large chunks of time-years even) that my resistance to notice myself and life around me, had changed.
Kinda like now when my young toddler daughter has just tossed her lunch all over the floor and our friend, our pet cat, has a knack for upsetting trash bins. Sometimes we try to force things to happen in any moment. Sometimes we need to just let go, breathe, and begin taking our baby steps in the right direction.
Present moment, awareness of the Now. Do you have any moments like this? Moments that seem to be changing your life. Or could it be that life is changing on account of your actions?
~Namaste~
wonderful thought -"my resistance to notice myself and life around me had changed." A
ReplyDeleteYou truly are a beautiful being. The search for "self" is a never-ending journey and many of us just forget to tune in, while others simply choose not to. The process can awaken an aray of emotions (some with explanations and others without) and the difficulty of why we are the way we are, can become a daunting task. However, you seem to have chosen an outlet that allows for fluidity in it all. Remembering the past can partition our future, when it becomes the focus of our present moment. It is a miracle to be mindful. Exploring the self can be beautiful when you become aware of the beauty that surfaces from within, these untouched crevasses reside in all of us, but their nurturing is our responsibility, a duty to ourself. Yoga brings the body and soul into a oneness that the mind often reluctantly, enjoys! You seem to be doing just that and it truly is as beautiful as you! <3 Annie
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